As a working mom I feel like I fall short everywhere. There are not enough hours in the day or energy in my body to allow me to give everything and everyone my all. My weekdays are full of driving baby and me to and from grandmas and work, a 7-8 hour work day as a special education teacher, dinner, dishes, laundry, and bedtime. Sometimes those things spill over into the next day or into the weekend and it’s an endless cycle I feel like I’m trapped in.
Don’t get me wrong, I love being a mom and providing for my family in every way that I can but there are days where I feel like I have so much to do. When I reflect at night I feel bad for the time I didn’t spend with my son because I was rushing around trying to finish laundry or attempting to clean a bathroom. Sometimes it’s the other way around. I put stuff off and spend my time after work playing and at the end of the night I look at my untidy house. In that moment I wish that my husband would agree that hiring a cleaning service once a month would be really nice. I think it’s reasonable. I’m working on making this happen.
As I write this I remember, “oh yeah I’m also a wife!”. If my husband is reading this, please know I’m doing the best I can and the love I’ve always had for you is still there and bigger than ever. Watching you be the best daddy to our little boy makes my heart want to explode! I’m still trying to figure out my life with the role of momma in it. Before I had my first I remember telling my husband “we can’t forget about us”. That plan didn’t work out. I’m finally to the point where I can be comfortable leaving my son with his grandparents for a couple of hours while we have date night. The only thing is we don’t make time for date night. Our weekends are full of doing things around the house or running some errands. Now you can add Football and MLB Playoffs. By 5 o’clock I’m ready for bed. My goal is to make date night a normal part of our lives again. I’ll update you guys on how this plan works out.
If there are any working moms out there that have the cleaning, the wife duties and mom duties down, I’d love to hear what you do! With a second baby boy on the way I need to figure something out quick. I would love to not feel as overwhelmed as I did the first time. I want to be able to somewhat enjoy postpartum this time around.